I'm Trying But...

I'm trying but it's not easy. You ever just want to make a difference in the world and in the lives of others, but at the end of the day, no matter how much you accomplish, it's never enough? It's like you never complete the work. It's as if you keep working and working and never get paid. Building the building and never reaching the top. I don't know what it's called but the Apostle Paul said he had not attained his target, but he pressed forward. I guess in this place, it keeps us moving. Otherwise we could think we have arrived and stop the work. So having received this understanding, I will rest now.I have been spent for the benefit of others. I have lost for the sake of others. I have taken the backseat so others can ride shot gun. Yeah, I'm trying, but it's not easy.

Heal My Heart

You ever have a great day? I mean a really great day? I mean you nailed it, you hit the bulls eye? But afterward, you come down from your high and now you are at a low. Have you experienced this? I sort of feel this way. Yeah, what good is a great victory if you have no one to share it with? It's like a so what effect. Yeah, what a waste almost. So you fight this great battle, you slay the giant. So you swim the deepest ocean and climb the highest mountain. At the end of the day you want to share all your joy and enthusiasm with someone. You want to tell the story and how you felt. You want to share your moment of victory. But when you are alone, it's just you and there you sit and from there you come down from your high mountain and sink into your valley. So I pray, heal my heart Lord. I ask God to help me because I am weak. I am worn and I am just me. My rejoicing has turned to tears. Funny in a way now that I think of it, yet real. Yeah, I had a great day!